it's hard to share...

it's hard to share...

I'm not naturally an extrovert.

I know it might not seem the case by looking at me today, but I used to be the absolute definition of an introvert (I've come a long, long way). Reminiscing back to my childhood days, I can remember quite vividly hiding under the kitchen table to open my presents at Christmas or my birthday. You heard me right, I'd literally bury myself under the tablecloth and chairs so that no one could see what I was opening. I was an amazing child, obviously.

Why hide you ask? It's simple – I didn't want anyone to see the look of surprise on my face or for anyone else to know what my gift was before I fully grasped it for myself. And believe me – to this day my family still asks me if I want to go hide under the table when I open my gifts...oh, family =) 

But, as much as they might want to remind me of it, all of that is in the past. Of course I've out-grown that childish urge to hide from situations I'm not quite sure of. I've definitely matured past the phase of putting up walls (or in my case, hiding in them) to shelter myself from the watching world. I'm a grown-up now and the unknown is just a new frontier to explore, right? Or maybe not...

Because the unknown is a scary place.

It's not easy to put yourself out there, to bare your vulnerabilities, to share your story when you don't feel like you have it all together. I'm nearly two decades removed from the child who hid under the table to open Christmas gifts...but I still struggle to share anything about myself that I don't feel I have completely under control – I even struggle to give advice on subjects I don't feel I completely understand.

+ Enter this blog

Starting today, I'm embarking on a journey that I hope will eradicate this fear in me...
...I'm launching this blog.

Through this blog I hope to share some of my personal story, both as a photographer and simply as a person, as well as share tips and tricks on launching and maintaining a business, building a photography career, and anything and everything in-between.

I wish I could say I knew exactly what form this blog would take but...I think that's rather the point. As of now all I know is it's time to emerge from under the table and start sharing with the world, even if I don't fully know where this will lead me or how it will play out. Because I know that authentic sharing leads to vibrant community and community is exactly what I want to cultivate as I continue my photographic career and grow as a business and as a person.

So, ready or we go.